First Entry
Communicate. Thats an interesting word. What does it mean, how do you do it; should you do it. Over my lifetime I have not been very good at doing it. In the past, at times, I have wanted to but was unable to. WHY. Thats a big question. Maybe afraid of what it might reveal about me. I look at myself as an honest person so maybe down deep I was afraid of what I might divulge of who I really am. On the other hand just by being in the vicinity of someone else you are communicating something of yourself, that you are not trying to project. Some people have magnetic personalities and some, like me, have the opposite polarity; and my polarity, is very strong. And becoming aware of that at a younger age made me very sensitive to trying to connect with other people. Those type of endurances have a way of growing to the point of being a real problem; as it did with me. As it grew with the wider population, it also took a toll on my family, which it included my kids. Now i...